The Dialectician!!

bangalore diaries!!

2006-09-04T20:59:00.001+05:30

Return from term 3:
term 3 is screwed!! tell me more....pants are down....!!! results not indicative of the damage caused!! yeh!! whats this...i thot i was going to flunk!!!!thanks isb for being nice..!!
tuesday nite is travel time!! travelling to bangalore is always a celebration!!! bangalore doesnt stop to mystify me......when u are inside bangalore u get experience magic.....and when u are out of it...u get fresh air, litterally i mean!!!
930 it is in the morning....its bangalore blues...parents are as usual excited about the return of a son from a war!!! (eh,...whom was i fighting in hyd??)
1100: scoot.....its scoot around time...bags is waiting for me....hadnt talked to her for a long time!!!chauffer her of to her place.....she is my best friend now!!!! cool collective and composed all the time....but energy is unmistakenly invigorating.....a gem of entrepreneur that she is!!!

introspective moments: why is that life gives u shit all the time!!!.....after 2 hrs of thinking i realise its coz u have a love for it!!! dont treat test of time as shit, its absolute fun.....!! so now i am having fun!!!!

kiranian: a chat with him always help....just that he doesnt have time....anyway, he is now constipating in germany......24 hrs flight delay in transit is worse than amrutanjan around ur balls!!!!

Thursday.....A new found enthusiasm is working magic...
Swami and his friend :
it is time for some action....TT in thy own apartments...with an old chum......how good can it get!!! swami u are not bum in TT now......but i guess u have a long way to go before u can challenge me....lets make it again....u taking a couple of games is still no credit for u!!!
but i am happy for u.....u were searching for focus in life for a long long time...gues 9 years with u...i have never seen u so composed in ur life...
U r guitar work has come a long way, man i am way too impressed....!!lets jam next time!!

Shanti park:
its time again for a meet with a long lost time.....walkin towards abhi's house i got nostalgic...Remembered all those days for birthday parties and the ncj bunked moments in abhi's house.....things remain more or less the same.......abhi, ur mom hasnt changed....
but trust me ur sister looks stunning now!!!!!
its always good to catch up with old times!!!!

guru chats:
caught up with benchmates in college... simplistic pleasures.....of sitting and hobnobbing about everything on planet whom u strike chords so easily...
overheard a few engg students discussing college.....
so get nostalgic again at the first chance...... well, this is an automatic door way to archives of discussions....we have been coming to guru chats for 5-6 years....what have we discussed...all these years here...??the sequence goes something like this....
his girlfriend...class room....your girlfriend .... profs...girlfriends... companies/placements....girlfriends...1st company....girlfriends...salary structure...girlfriends...lost personal life....girlfriends....2nd company.....and marriage...........FULL STOP!!!!!
darshan..i thot u would get ur elantra here.....now that there is an elantra and a baleno...pavan, its time for u to get a honda city atleast!!!was suggesting this guy.....either get a girlfriend or a super car!! u can afford atleast one of them!!!
friday....its breakfast day......never before cooked better aloo paratas i get in bags home!!! ....hot fantastic...but it came with a cost....a lecture on marriage!!!!!!!!!
its business time!! what thots does it leave in ur mind when u speak to a man who talks business, walks business,sleeps business?? well, the rest of the day goes in thinking about the best available entrepreneurial options are available.....!!!!!
as nite arrives its tata time for kiran....

thanksgiving: its now time to get religious.....so visit a temple.....
what my life and soul has been blessed and dressed with is fantastic......i cant ask for more!!! there is someone somewhere beyond humans out there who is responsible for that happens to each one of us....i dont know who...i dont know where...but i have to thank him for that!!! so visit a temple.
not many ppl achieve what they want to achieve....not many ppl get to see physically what they dream of.......i, thankfully, dont belong to that category.....
it leads me to a thot.....human race is the only race on this planet that suffers freedom.....!!! u have money u suffer, u dont have u suffer...u have a job on hand u suffer, u dont have u still suffer..................u have education u suffer, if u dont have u still suffer................u have a girlfriend u suffer, if u dont have..err u dont suffer, but i am not the right guy to be asked...."what if she leaves u??"
euphoria strikes if prayers get answered repeatedly.....!!!!
saturday was euphoric.......!!!!!!

a ride to omkar hills , was a gud option to strike on a saturday afternoon!!!!given that somu has no time for me!!!!

gummanur trips: this village becons me on a great sunday morning....!!!!what a wonderful place this is!!!
i guess it would be completely unfair if i dont dedicate a special blog to this!!!

back to ISB : monday morning it is.....and i am back in hyd.....coming back to my quad gives me a feeling of a married man returning back to his wife and children after a long trip!!! my life ,wife (or should i say my laptop!!) and soul lives here!!and life comes a full circle !!!

Interpretations!!

2006-07-30T20:58:00.000+05:30

Its 515 early morning! My eyes are awake...It feels like a little dusky.If I were in bangalore I would have thot it was 630.But the thick curtains hide my bed away from any little light that can penetrate through to my room.My eyes are wide open...And i am staring at the ceiling.The rooms is decibeled by the grinding sound of my fan.But deep inside my mind runs an electric train.I continue to star blankly at the fan.Whats life all about?? Where have I come and Where do I stand??my cheeks widen a bit.I am not sure if it was worth a smile.But retrospection holds sway for the moment.
My childhood opaques my view of the running fan.It comes in frames...sometimes a little too blurr.Experiences-both horror and ecstatic ones, motion fast in front of my eyes.I change my expressions accordingly.My cheeks hurt a bit.But who cares.life is a roller coaster.
I see all those actors who played a role in my life,and built it for me, they stare at me one by one straight in my eyes.Some laugh, some cry, some smile. There are only 3 people who look at me expressionless.My father, my mother and my brother.They have been with me all through my lifetime.And i am unable to comprehend them. My eyes swell a bit, vision blurs, a stream of colourless fluid brims my eyes.

I close them, take a deep breathe and open again.the eyes clear out a bit. The fan is still swirling like it could go on for eternity.But it takes less than a second for imagination to hold sway again!
The vision changes.Another pleasant smile appears, i am jittery in my eyes, vision still blur.
Its amazing how much life can offer u!
Oh!My dear Men and Women!! You, who have come across my life, giving me the pleasure of all experiences!!I salute u!! I shall die a peaceful death one day..just in ur name!! How can I regret!! U have given me what u were destined to give me!! U are my men of honour!! I salute u!!thanks is what i can say!!
What next?? life never ceases to amaze me!! I only wish ... i could get up in the morning look at life in anticipation.But the fear is...its never clear what it can throw at u!!Bumps on my forehead!!wake up its no use trying to sleep! its dawn!!

july 29th

2006-07-29T21:15:00.000+05:30

hi, the post for the day is back!
I have no mood to study...I am too tired...Slept through all day...Sometimes people are tired when their body aches..and sometimes when their mind aches....My mind aches...i am too tired to think...heart says its not worth dont think!!! but mind persists...How fantastic can this get!! mind finds problems even when there arent any!! heart finds solutions even when there arent any!!
As I switch channels I continue to think!!On one of these channels i hear this song..
"har gadi badal rahi hai roop zindagi"... In one of these scenes Shah rukh finds that the doc realizes his time is up...and a parallel time scene dictates preity having a ball with saif...the world is just unfair isnt it?? I remembered watching this movie ..I had burst out laughing at the stupidity of the scene when everyone else was watching the movie with an emotion attached....now as i watch it i feel like crying......the world is unfair afterall....
I feel like crying...aloud...much louder than these peacocks around in the campus.....but no ones going to hear....There are good moments and there are bad moments....Try to get the good moments going!! What are those good moments in my life?? Well, date on the TV just said 29th july!! Does that ring a bell somewhere??
Ohh yes, it is a 4th year aniversary of something!! The ache in the mind goes down a little....heart and mind smile alike! an orchestra is struck between them...The happiness is now soothing....
It was an early morning mist!!On july 29th, 2002, the three of us got up!! my mind wasnt this bad then...Mysore was as cool as a cucumber at 615 in the morning....Pavan, kata and me had just woken up to a new dawn...not like any other dawn...a dawn that would be worth remembering for my life time...the professional in me was born....I didnt realise it then. Getting up ready was the paramount thing in my life!! We resided at the residence of mitra's, a good hearted uncle of pavan. Staying temporarily for the day, along with us in Mitra uncle's den, was pavans parents.They came along with us all the way from bangalore just to get us comfortable.
I was reporting for my first day's work today along with pavan and karthik.
Thus began a fantastic day, a day from which my first earnings would trickle down...It was a fantastic feeling...All three of us dressed in a completel white and black formals and of course a tie.I wore a formal shoe that i had bought newly just for my work..but that was the only day I wore it in my entire professional career for the next 4 years.
We all boarded on mopeds -2 TVS champs-belonging to me n pavan and a Hero Puch that was kata's, transported from bangalore just to aid our travel within mysore.We all set out with a photograph that pavans parents captured, that has now turned into one of a a nostalgic gift.
Well, a mahurtam was also sort just in case we land up at an inaspicious moment that would screw up our entire career.as if it hasnt now!!
So as early as 730 we set out in a very funny manner, unknowingly what we were venturing into and completely ignorant of the moment. There was also a token of gift for mother nature - a nature call that we attended, in front of a tree that was cut down a few days down the lane....
It was one of those joyous occasions..where little things grew big.....
We did a reporting in the morning the 5 of us...along with kishore and vikas who joined in later...we went on a wishing spree ...hellowing everyone we came along.....well a few days later when my new batchmates did the same when i visited them....It was hilarious...the guys and girls of my batch..stood up when I visited them in a conference room....they confused me to be a senior in the org....i got a respect that i didnt deserve ..it was pretty hilarious.....
On the first visit we met this gentlemen who had interviewed all of us....We told him we came at 800 in the morning....he remarked.."there should have been no one in the office so early..."
It was a small joy...considering that we would be rebuked if we walked in 5 seconds late to a class in my college... no one would question us here if we came in late to the office!!!

Well, the whole year was a happy holiday for all of us....We worked our lives with ethics and happiness...I would say i wish today that the holiday would have lasted for ever.....It was most definitely the happiest of times that I had in my life.....

......I always believed that these small rules that u set for urself will help u in the long run....I gave up on small pleasures for something big I would get later in life...Go and get what u want..the world out there is so big!!!!
careers take a turn u never except...My life has come a full circle in 4 years...I am sure its the same for others as well....
Hmm... as I sit retrospecting this moment...its time to sleep again...the tiredness in my mind is back..its going to follow me whereever i go!!! The ache in the mind swells up....heart and mind fade in smiles ! an orchestra strikes a discordant note......The happiness is now overshadowed....... Life is not all about happiness after all....Trust brings with it a great deal of risk and happiness....Higher the trust higher is the happiness..and higher is the risk of losing it.!!
Dont know where my stand right now is..!!!

MBA devils

2006-07-25T22:01:00.000+05:30

ok here I am...finding some inspiration to blog again!!I will update my whole term 2 exp.
btw, term 2 is history now!! and term 3 is present!
but before that here are a couple of quizzes for problemers!!
1) i liked this one, i thot these are the things one need to really learn from a B school rather than mug numbers for problems...anyway here it goes!!
One night a thief once raided a Richie richs house.The next morning the richie rich got up only to see his jewels looted.but no money was stolen.So he went ahead and launched a complaint in a local police station.After a few days the thief was caught.!!!The thief was going a thru a personal trauma to which he would succumb soon.!!To make good for his sins, he confessed to looting the jewels and surrendered all the jewels he had looted.However a very funny thing happened!!
Before he breathed last he made the following statement!! "Alas, here comes time when I breathe the last!! To lighten the burden of sins here i say a thing, a complete truth.I stole the jewels alright, but it was not at the richie richs house!!"
The police recorded this statement of the thief! and was horrified to here the last sentence.
He takes a look at the jewels again, The jewels matched the exact description of what the Richie rich mentioned in his complaint!
Now, if u were in the shoe of the police inspector, how would u go about solving the problem??

I dont know the solution, in other words i wont discuss it here!! let the battle begin!!

Snake bytes!

2006-06-20T03:32:00.000+05:30

Dear fellow living beings!
I am just a creature like u.This place was my home before u came here.U came here and built this big campus in what used to be my free area, I was born and brought up here.So are most of my fellow snakes.I have seen my grand parents and heard about my ancestors who lived here.I didnt question you when u came and claimed this land as yours.U are afterall a fellow human being.I being a submissive species dared not to move into areas you built this beautiful campus on.I respect your ambition.
Today I am restricted in space in the very place you have come and occupied my home.I am proud that you made such good use of land to be the best B school in town.They even have a name for the place i was born in.They say ISB! man! wow!. I cant think like you do.Your achievements are beyond my imaginations.
However, I have a small request. This is a rainy season, as it gets very sticky in homes.I cant stay inside for a long time.A few of my generations understand we are no longer free to go around in this place.A lot from younger generations have no where to go.They are bound to move around in the campus.Like I said snakes are not as intelligent as humans.
They call us poisonous, but i can vouch that we have a clean record.
We havent bitten any one till now or there are no cases of any death by snake bites.
So please dont go on a killing spree. U are supposed to be my benefactor, my fellow living being and my protector.A few amongst you might even pretend to pray to me once a year.
All i request you is....please dont panic! I am not as harmful as you are.
I am begging you for my life.Please! lets live in peace!
I am still not angry with you. I am just asking you to be a little more "human" .Dont be "animals".
This for us is not a matter of joke, when u see us in our habitat, for no particular reason, u panic, and kill us at sight, take pictures and send it to fellow humans and amuse urself with it.
I beg you all over again, I request you again, only a few of my species remain today on earth, Dont kill us all.
Your sincerely,
A dejected snake !

Dear God,
I am one of those repentant ISBian inside the campus.I am fed up of being a human.After reading this message from snake, my heart goes out to them.All 420 ill minded mortals like me living inside this campus are fit for nothing creatures who are here to make money at the cost of others.We are taught how to exploit other humans and become rich.The price we pay for that are loads of money borrowed from a bank!!
I study in my room in the first floor.A fellow human being labelled as "security man" watches my room all the time trying to protect me.I have no respect for him.The only difference between me and him is that we had different parents.But as a result today his job is to be my protector while I pretend to work hard.While I prepare myself to see crores of money, he prepares himself for to see people rake in crores of money.Not that he is not capable like me, but just that he isnt blessed like me..U are responsible for it!I am privilaged guy.
I get to earn money for one year.I also get to kill a lot of snakes around in the campus.I take pics of them and mail it to my friends here.I talk of the good of mankind and bullshit about human nature, but care a least to follow them.
I go to the lecture theatre, A respected gentleman is here to teach me, but I have no respect for him.How can I respect him?? He is my slave. I have paid him to do what he is here to do.As a result I can come anytime to the class, I can eat what I want when he is teaching me some important things, I can go out of the class and come back anytime I want.I can even order him to do things i want him to do.
I visit this lavish canteen daily, I pay for the food, so I can take any amount of food i want and prefer to waste them,Just throw it away.Neither do I have any regard to all those who have put in their blood to grow them in fields nor do I have any respect for those who are dying of hunger without food day in and out.After all , People are here to do what I want, and I am an ISBian.i am a heartless creature.U are responsible for it again!!
I am a learned man today, Please, is there anyway U can terminate me??
If you dont open your eyes today, a lot of objects like me will be produced on this planet and soon hell will come down to earth.Please save this planet.
A soul craving for moksha!

A walk in the clouds!

2006-06-02T00:51:00.000+05:30

Hyderabad has a fantastic cloud cover, Its rainy season now! Rain Gods havent been cruel to the city again this time around. Its always a pleasantry to see the clouds coming to rescue of bi-legged mammals and offering a temporary shade from the otherwise scorching sun of hyderabad! the pathway in student village offers a smile to walk on! A wet carpet spreads out to the stressed minds of ISB.The green cover sweats out the last drops of rains, and gleams for once with a cheek wide smile, just as the sun goes down in the evening. As I stand by the window sill, looking out,its a perfect picture with wrong moods walking on the rain covered pathways.I have this marketing book in my hand, but i am in no mood to study.As I watch out, reflecting my own mood, I see some sober minds, some thinking faces, some introspective eyes, so worn out cheeks walking furiously in and out of the village. All these people are either walking in to their houses or walking out to the library.What a waste of ISB life..I wonder! Well, though my face dont seem to differ from any of those i described! Ohh! and then there are some cheerful and innocent souls hanging around! Its not difficult to guess who they are!!
After ISB too have some people here having a ball!!
The cheerful faces belong to the spouses of a few students here, and the innocent once their off-springs.Their fathers/mothers seem to pay a heavy price to come to this beautiful place offering a trailer of nature. but its mostly the children and spouses whom u find in the lawns, on the grass - rolling and laughing all their way atleast for next one year- while the students sweat it out!!!

Technical snag!!

2006-06-02T00:36:00.000+05:30

hmm..the subject line is becoz i have just taken a break from studies..:)
Today was the last day of term 1..the classes got over...
I really miss rakesh vohra!!He is great!!
And so was Mark finn..who would be walking out of our courses!!
He was pretty good in handling Finance....We were lucky to have him for the whole term.
Waterman was superman in his teaching!! He taught at rocket pace!!
I slept over most of his classes.
Ohh by the way, I lost out in the AC sleeper of the term award of the class.
It was time for mock awards in the class.
I came a close second in winning the award.Except that Kamma made it finally,
Buddy next time around i will beat u.I was sitting in the last row.so most people could never see my sleeping skills..So have ur ball!!
MK was unianimously voted late latifa! but i thot she should have been declared accountant of the year award!! i cant help notice that she sometimes admire her looks a lot!Apart from me rarely have I come across people who love themselves so much.
And then there is my neighbour SB, she sat next to me for the whole term.She is kinda energetic. Interestingly I have avoided talking to her a lot.I dont know why.Though she is not my enemy!But she is a sweet girl. She kinda got irritated that i slept a lot, like she mentioned, it was "depressing" for her.I guess she will be relieved not to sit next to me next term. And same with me here!!
Now is the time to mention DOC.He is crazy, He comes out of this outta-the-world heaven hometown of his, which resembles somewhat this romantic locations shot in hindi movies.Its everyones dream to live in place like he belongs to! He is crazy enuf to leave that and come over to ISB!! God bless ppl like him!!
He is a thorough gentlemen, except that I have a suggestion buddy, U keep guys talk with guys!!Let boys be boys!!
There was no send off party for the profs this time, And going by this, looks like there wouldnt be any in the future !!I guess "folks" here have ran out of cash in term 1 itself!! well, that is some state of "potential karorpathis" ...now leave me outta this ok??

The last mile!

2006-05-31T11:31:00.000+05:30

here comes the end of term 1. click next tuesday.I am done with exams.
Climate has changed in ISB camp.So has the mood with it. Its no longer as hot as it used to be a month ago.The feel of the cold has spread.Spread everywhere. Mid terms did a great chiller job.
Its amazing how just 2 tests can develop cold feet between friends, students. Few reign high while a few whine.But the hope never ends! like they say hope is eternal. The dread exams make their appearance again for 2 days.During these days [even a few days before that] one doesnt feel like human being.Interesting this phenomenon of exams and tests doesnt exist in other species.Like for example, imagine if one were to invite applications for interview for animals for the post of " pets" in a house.Then the whole symbotic relation on this planets would go for a toss, wouldnt it?? And there would be OBCs for animals.So backward animals like pig, donkey etc would have filed a case against more popular pets like dog, cat and horse. And then arjun singh would have stepped in allocated some "seats" in houses for them.Then one would have had to bare with having pets too! like if u owned a dog as a pet, u have to house a pig.
And then u have to create a dwelling for them.So ur shit pot would have had to be outside the house.in a swamp of drainage.On the other hand, the more favourable pets would argue what went wrong with them, why they were being dished out such mis treatment.Shouldnt it be solely on merit! See what exams can do to one. Its now clear in my mind that exams are a cause of social disharmony. It divides people unfairly. Even though god gave humans same mind with diverse orientations, Some are unfairly called better than others of the same make.In my mind I only distinguish the two clans as the quantitatively oriented [good in exams] and qualitatively oriented[good elsewhere].Since i belong to the later clan, I am obviously biased towards it.
And folks this is my blog, and hence only my choices win here.
Well, lets now discontinue this argument, else exams may have a case of discrimination against me!!
Otherwise, over the past 2 weeks i have been thoroughly enjoing an entertainment by one Mr Rakesh Vohra.He is too good.When he conducts class , even me wont sleep.He is a demi god of game theory.The way he sequences his class is fabulous.I am now so deeply addicted to him.Unfortunately today is going to be his last class.I really look forward to seeing him in the coming terms.He is an inspiration when he starts staging the class.
Ohh! reality strikes. exams approaching, i got to study, unfair world, bad practises, grumble, grumble, mumble mumble.... #%^&&^%!!!!!!!!

times running out!!

2006-05-25T02:18:00.000+05:30

times running out!!
i am left behind in the race...the first proof arrived when eco marks of mid term was released today...i am already way behind in my study schedule...in 2 weeks i would be writing my final exams...and as it appears now mostly unprepared.its almost 230 and i havent slept..just like most in the campus....hmmm..am i complaining ?? honestly i feel like!! but still i havent sunk my heart yet...coz i know whats keeping the boat afloat! there is still support?? its not all ended afterall....there is a lot to look forward...
for some ppl life begins just when it looks like its ended. I have a lesson to learn from...Its time when i am telling myself..prashanth! go and study hard! the world is yours!!
hmm.lets see if there are better things for me to tell next time..untill then.....

a walk to remember!

2006-05-17T12:02:00.001+05:30

well,
its sometime since i have hit this pages! Life has come a full circle for me.
Its truely amazing as to how life can change overnight.How breez comesby, and how it takes u
along to the places u havent gone before.A similar breeze hit me 2 weeks back.It stirred up my life, change the orientation of my heart and left an indelible expression of human emots.
hmm.some senti stuff this.Am i talking like a guy in luv? or am i reading a script straight out of a movie.Neither.I am talking like a changed me.I am me no more.Its us.
The first phase of ISB sessions got over with.There was a small party yesterday for all the 2 profs.
Robert stine; the man who took 5 stat sessions. He taught us how to measure the confidence with which one can talk, bullshit and convince. well for starters its only with 95% confidence.
Rest 5 % is a false positive.I mean when u find a girl in campus and want to propose to her.Say u go ahead and proposed to her, if the girl now wants to find out how confident u are for urself, stine just provided a formula for that. She can use ur proposal as a sample and find out proportion and standard deviation and tell how confident u are about ur proposal.If u beat that 95% confidence level proposed be Z statistic, u may just get lucky...else...well...u are a false positive..it just means that u proposed..but never meant it.Now some application this....Wonder what walterman will have for us next.Becoz he is next up today to teach us.

the next for the send off is asim ansari; he never turned up for the party.he got busy, we thot he should have come becoz he did an exquiste job of teaching marketing.through out his classes most of the students were enjoying life. Class participation dwindled exponentially with each class.Jagmohan raju is taking asims place and hope there wont be a my-hand-bigger-than-urs competation.Lets hope we continue to enjoy life.

Amit bubna by far the best of them, simply becoz he connected with students more easily than anyone else.So for a change lets not mock at him.He did a tremendous job.managerial economics sounds more interesting to me now.The nuances of supply-demand curve is embedded in my head that i always think of the opportunity cost of going to LRC or rec centre.Thanks to him i gave up rec centre and so did my quaddie GB.
Yesterday night GB was caught napping.he would have been photographed naked by me.HG tried to help me but GB escaped narrowly.Since we lost an opportunity click him in his birthsuit i am trying to make up by putting this in my blog.He also slammed his door or on my poor friend HG, HG got his fingers cut, but GB didnt show a slight bit of remorse.So i hope after reading my blog he goes to a confession box.

Now its time to talk about my study group.One of the best diverse group award should go to this group.coz each on things this way.now digest this.MC of our group is a part of UN.She has travelled over 50 countries.She has been selected by ISB to go to china for some human resource conference..(pardon me ..i am completely ignorant).
The other 3 guys of my group AG, S, darmendar, are brilliant guys. They show so much fire while studying that the argument goes in native languages.I am caught between foot and mouth.But team game is important.I love playing in teams.And trust me i have improved my listening skills a lot.
Amidst all this choas there is one more character in this group.She is like the epicenter of our group.She bridges all the egos and tie them up at the centre so that the group so that ppl dont run in different directions.Welcome DK.She has done a fantastic job too.

its time to go now bloggy.next time i might hit u sooner.

the hard core terms!!!

2006-05-04T23:48:00.000+05:30

my first week of classes got over!!it was one hell of a week!! in all about 32 hrs lecture in the week...3 assignments. and loads of work to study!!looks cool ah??
but then with my 3rd week in this place having gone by its a pretty different life out here!!
all this is now part and parcel of life!!
i got to work with my studymate and groupmate AG.He too is an intelligent animal.But a little better than most here in the sense that he is pretty focused on his study!!I just kind of marvel at events that might have transpired before he came here.the fact that he had to take a big decision to come here with his family to study.His spouse had to shift jobs!! and then his kid relatively new to the world..having to adjust to this new place.Its kind of marvel sometimes how much one would sacrifice and how much adjustments one has to be ready to face!I completely and whole heartedly appreciate AG in his endeavor.
One great thing u definitely learn at ISB is how SMARTly u can do ur work as against how MUCH u need to work.I am looking forward to more sessions of study with him!!

my visit to rec center has streamlined a bit..i mean i have definite hrs of visiting it...but i should try and not give it up !!!
its pretty late, my next post i should try and keep up a promise....about our CP king and of course a brief note about our term profs!!

End of fun-days!!

2006-05-02T22:19:00.000+05:30

the end of pre terms also marked the end of fun for all the students!! it was a fantastic transition exercise that transpired in the last 15 days- one starting with fun..more fun...lots of fun to the point where the fun subsided and seriousness took over!!
The last day at the rec centre when i visited...i saw that gloom had descended over the place.It wore a deserted look.Just 2 weeks before the indoor courts were full to the brim.Ppl complaining about the lack of facilities-- a small gym, 2 badminton courts and 1 TT board for 428 students!!!!!
The reason was pretty evident on this last day of pre terms!!Very few ppl had turned up at the centre..a few sport facinates like me, GB and CP!!
ohh!! i forgot to say about this CP..!! CP is the "nic" name of the last quadmate of mine...about whom i havent spoken till now..Given that the time of this writing is supposed to be the last day of preterm..[and i am writing it now!!]i will talk more about him in my next post!!!
This brings me to my cool quaddie HG!! this is one super cool character...why??
i guess he has already set the record for missing the most classes in preterm...He missed 3 classes.and each bloody preterm session costs us 800 bucks....amounting to 400 bucks per hour of class....hence the 5 min break that we used to get in the course also cost us 50 bucks!!!!!
and this great quaddie slept thru the whole of 2 days missing 3 sessions and also his group meeting!!! He aspires to be in the deans list!!and in my opinion he will be in the deans special list :D....ok jokes apart! he is a fantastic character.....!! he is pretty intelligent and has a good sense of humour just like my other quaddie GB!!
for sake of onlookers another interesting story about my another quaddie GB is that his love story got leaked to his sweethearts father.He is a little tense about it!! [though he claims otherwise!!] And guess what, his would be father-in-law also visited isb campus! my friend claims that he visits hyderabad casually and hence his visit to ISB was a gudwill visit!!
well, i truely trust him...it was indeed gudwill visit becoz he got a few wafers and chocolates for us...errr.....for him!!and i wish him this goodwill visit keeps happening every once in 2 weeks!!!
anyway, i am happy for him..for he is a very nice and sporty chap!!!and deserves all that he gets!!
Well, the fun ends here!! its time to be serious...work gets hectic...and assignments are ruthlessly painful!! so its now time to pinch the butt and start the study engines!!
i will try and post this blogs as much as possible!! i hope i am able to keep up this promise of mine!!!

early settlement!!

2006-04-27T09:19:00.000+05:30

the preterm courses are now in full swing.I attended a class for 4 hrs yesterday.
Though business stats wasnt so interesting a class, i still managed to sit thru.It did help a bit to revise my rusted fundas.Most of my classmates felt that they could have picked up the material and worked out at home.The reason for this,I feel, is that the course taken by a prof needs an approach from a perspective point of view.What is given in the book can be understood at its face value from the readers.what the class attenders seek for in a class is the profs' perspective or take or understanding of the subject so that they can form their own.But if the prof were to merely repeat what is there in the book then the class will be of much lesser use.Having said that not much of a perspective can be offered in a business class stats, can it??
The accountancy class was by far the best of the 2.mubin rafat who handled the class is a brilliant lady.It appears that she can handle a class for any number of hrs.Coz previous to my accounts class she handled a class for different section for a marathon 2 hrs.And she barged into our class and continued the marathon for the next 2 hrs.And I did not notice a drop in her energy till the end.it was simply brilliant!
Otherwise, now my schedule has got a little tighter.Still i do find time for a swim, or badminton or TT.probably becoz this is just preterm and doesnt call for a grade.So from next week i might have to forget all my ECA.

The I deep inside me!!

2006-04-25T10:47:00.000+05:30

Ever since i am here in ISB, a few things run into my mind so often!!I am asked a few questions on a regular basis!!not just here at ISB but since my professional life has started!!
Let me try and address this question in my blog!! Atleast I cant get into arguments

1)I cant believe u dont have a girlfriend/Arent you going around with anyone-short term/long term!!
2) i cant believe u dont booze
3) Are a vegetarian by choice or religion!

for the 1st question, my answer is i dont know why u want me to know if I believe it or not!!
ohh btw, do i need to have one just becoz all have?? I know its peer pressure for most of them/but not for me!!I dont do things i just becoz my peers do!! Btw, who said having a girlfriend adds colour in life?? definitely not me.... Ahh in case i have one too, u will get a negative reply from me.....i am not the one who can go tomtoming about having a girlfriend etc etc!!! I find that a lot of them have take great pride in using this terms "am going around" ,"was going around" "broke up with her" "we didnt get along well with each other"
another ridiculous question i get is "is it for short term/long term" well i never knew one had short term girlfriends and long tem girlfriends, as in short term investments and long term investments!! dont u get returns if u have short term or long term??
2) well my first question is why should I ?? i have no love failures, have committed no crimes and i am pretty well mentally stable.....Most ppl whom i ask...well of course after they have drowned themselves in a peg or 2, or maybe on the verge of passing out, say that they dont drink becoz they like it!!!
well, lets not get into an argument!! will talk to u once u r drunk!!
whatever be the reasons, as far as I am concerned I am not going to be darooed!!
its just not enuf if u like ur great leaders,u should be able to learn from them!!
In the end, we are just a culmination of what our inspirations are, isnt it?? its no use if u can give a speech about great personalities, or even give PPTs about them if cant replicate a strand of their qualities.
I am not trying to preach again.I just ask this simple question for myself? If I had a son or a daughter would I like them [rather accept them] when they booze or fag or anything for that matter? If the answer is a big NO, then I should not be doing it!!!!

3)this question is even more ridiculous!
let me answer this question simply--yes i am a veg by religion!!
say dont u agree with me on the following points!
Religion is existant on this planet ever since human has existed!! religion could not have been formed just by picking arbitrary names on this planet and making a "GOD" out of it!!
Religions have not be formed in a day or two...its again a evolution of practises and recognition of a pattern of beliefs.
so in the end u were an X-caste guy or a Y-caste guy, becoz u followed a particular set of beliefs.
[I am not disputing that X is right or Y is right..hope that is clear].And now if u bloody well beg to differ from it then who the hell cares for it!! It just means U lack social responsibility and always put ur self interests ahead of the norms.U may call it freedom/rational interests/change etc whatever u want.But the truth is u are breaking a few of the tenets [that form the core of religion u r supposed to belong to ] followed by ur forefathers/grandfather/father a whole set of lineage, and U were expected to follow this.
Now does that make u feel a little responsible??
So the summary again would mean that I believe in what beliefs my religion has preached and I simply take the goods of humanity out of it and follow it!So there is nothing like vegetarian by choice or religion.
For ppl still reading till now,my reason why i am a veg is the following.
Man by nature is a herbivore.He doesnt have canine teeth in the front of his mouth, like many carnivores do.And so is his digestive system-designed to be a vegetarian one.
imagine u are in chennai/mangalore/mumbai in one of summer months.U are walking on the road hungry and tired.Its very hot and humid.U come across a vendor who is selling some roadside food. now this food is in the same place for about 3 days.Would u eat it??
Most 'hygenic' ppl would refrain from eating, isnt it??for obvious reasons, that the food would rot.
Now deep inside ur stomach, its a similar situation-very hot and humid.Human body, on an average requires about 40-48 hours to digest a piece of meat.Imagine what condition this meat undergoes by the time it becomes non existant from the moment u have taken in.
Becoz the meat rots and is difficult to digest, ur body starts producing more enzymes to digest it, thus causing u to be more active albeit an unhealthy one.
For ppl ready bash me up with an arguments about meat building ur body, for muscles and stuff...please google about bruce lee about his food eating habits!u will learn the fact that he was a vegetarian!![argument continuess....................................]
ok i am pretty much done for the day!! have a class in the afternoon.
Yesterday i met up with vikas, was happy to see his family.......he is newly married.I see so much of change in him..He talks walks and breathes responsibility these days!!!So much a marriage can do!! So should i stay away from it??atleast for the time being??
have to meet up with my groupmates. all groups have met up atleast once...my group is a little slow to start of with.....hope it runs in a full steam after sometime....

routine past week!!

2006-04-23T23:26:00.000+05:30

its just a week now since i have been to isb!!
but looks like ages since i am here!!
my typical morning of these days,
800/830:
wake up from bed just as the other 2 quadies of mine, GB and HG get up at the same time....
hurriedly take bath! and start walking either for a talk or some gyan session!!
on the way contemplate whether to take breakfast or not!!and then hit upon a consensus that we would have breakfast even if there is one fellow in the dining hall!else head for the designated session.
Eventually we decide upon having breakfast becoz bf is the only good thing in the goels dining hall.
900/930 - enter the class late and like savita mahajan says without caring a shit for remorse...
1230 head for dining hall for lunch.Lunch is ok for me, but my quadies being north indians stand staring cluelessly as what to have and what not!!eventually they settle upon something-their choices have no rational.
if there is a session after lunch , which are not "compulsory" then head back to the quads...
200 hit the bed...becoz u r too tired due to a late night party!!
400:plan to get up..wake up and put the alarm off and go back to sleep!!
530"wake up....check mails and go to rec centre....play badminton, tt, basketball, billiards, volleyball, basketball and squash for 3 hrs...
our boy HG is like the alok character....he doesnt join us in sports, he heads back to his room and watch TV....or do something..indoors
900: all meet up for dinner....
1000: head for a class party or students party...i swear to myself that i wont be here for more than 30 mins....i am a teetotaler and so is HG....but GB is not...so he helps himself for a booze.....
start the dance..... 3 hrs zips bye and we are now tired to dance any further....
head back to the room...
its just 1250....and time for a movie...GB has this great collection of movies which will take us the entire year to complete......
watch the movie in GB's room....he dozes of in the middle....the 2 of us complete the movie....
its 230 early morning....return to our rooms...i check mails and hit the bed!!

Community service!!

2006-04-21T11:59:00.000+05:30

the community service was main agenda of our yesterdays orientation session!!
what was really so gud was the fact that we got to interact with all the "underprivilaged" ppl.
but tell me honestly are we underprivilaged or they underprivilaged....all we do is measure everything with the material benefits that we have.......
however there is an urge within each one of them to do something for the community...
that is the good part!!!
we are always creating the negative impact on the children who are so called underprivilaged..!!!!
95% of ISB is made up drunkards who "party" till unearthly hours.....and they go profiling these children "do ur parents drink" i was ashamed to ask these type of questions to the children.who are 7-8 years old!!who so innocently answer the questions asked!!
they ask these children do u have TV radio etc.....i feel its ok to go to their houses and take a survey, but dont ask these children questions they are not mature enuf to answer.....
and as it is u r making them feel underprivilaged even if there are a few to-be-great citizens hidden among them.
what i feel is that, all indians have a fantastic ability to preach things they dont adopt themselves....
social responsibility among the educated class in India is the least and horrible...
i saw one of the bloks asking whats ur "mummy" and "daddy" is this what our parents taught us?? i really wonder!! initially it was ok to keep these type of culture only within the restricted class but now the spoilt brats have taken it upon themselves to spread their dirty culture across all sections of society in the name of community service....hail our citizens!!!
apart from this there was a cricket finals between D and B. We lost albeit with a gutsy performance.I got a chance finally to play.A few confustions, regarding selections but things seem to be sorting out finally...and all is getting in place......
We might have lost in cricket and frisbee...but i am sure there are lots of sports where the cup belongs to just D section
and meanwhile the talent nites is scheduled today.....!!!!we are trying to put up a performance..has been a gud effort in that direction till now!!!lets see how it goes.....

Fun in the sun!!

2006-04-19T10:46:00.000+05:30

when i was in delphi it seemed like i had all the time in the world!!
but now boss, 24 hrs is way too less.but i am nevertheless happy
as things seem to have started happening in life.
I had a long day of fun in the sun yesterday.
a lot of games were arranged to convey subtle meanings.
it was a great way to imbibe certain qualities needed to be applied in our days to come at ISB.
i liked the hand knots game and the egg contract game.
we had to design a platform on the ground so that when an egg is dropped from a height
the egg doesnt break!!though the eggs survived from level 1,
unfortunately 2 eggs from level 2 never got thrown into the area of the platform,else i guess it would have survived.
also now i have got to know my roomies a little better.we seemed to have developed a good rapport with each other.played tt yesterday with GB in the night at 1200.
there was a party organised for the outgoing senior batch.i didnt attend as it was pretty tiring yesterday.
also metup with my group members.i am not happy with some of the team members.but i guess thats the way things go!! have to put up with it!!thats what this MBA is all about!

The journey unfolds!!

2006-04-16T12:05:00.000+05:30

Finally the much awaited journey in my life has begun!!
right from the moment i left my house till i am typing out this blog everything is a thoroughly new in my life! i have learnt to believe my entire life story is going to be rescripted!!
I dropped in to the campus at about 930 in the morning yesterday with my cousin, who was so helpful to me.He guided me from the moment i boarded down the train till i settled down here in my room.
My first impressions of this campus was not almost immediately formed.I didnt know what to expect before i crossed into the ISB gate!! I had to register at the security who gave me a Id number that would be my lifeline here for my entire stay at ISB.Along with that i got a map which would help me go and settle in my room.
I was the first one to enter my quad here!! I had anticipated my accom to be much more grand than what i got, but finally now i have settled down..its not a royal one, but a fairly decent one.
i had looked forward for a separate kitchen, it isnt there..so any hopes of self cook is washed out!
the food in the canteen is pretty good! but all canteens dish out that taste at the beginning...its only later on that u realise that u are dealing with worlds most horrible canteen!!anyway, as of now the food is really tasty!!
this was followed by a registration process.The people taking care of the registration seemed to have done a fantastic job. My registration happened pretty quickly.I guess it must be the same for others as the whole thing was neatly organised.
there was a party arranged in the evening by the outgoing batch.
It rained cats and dogs but the party went thru. and the first dunking in our batch happened and S was the first of the candidates. She got dunked pretty professionally thru neat following of guidelines from the seniors in the campus.However they were a few surprises.D was so innocently standing near the edge of the pool and watching the whole proceedings that it was reaally inviting for someone or the other to dunk her.Finally someone lost patience and D was in the pool all over!!A few others got dunked.It was the first of dunking that happened.
anyway, nice way to start the roler coaster going!!
its time for breakfast!!

The send off!!

2006-04-05T10:57:00.000+05:30

the last few days in Office passed of without much of a problem.I now miss that place a lot.I had made quiet a good number of friends.nevertheless, i guess life moves on.When i first joined this place my only intension was to resign as soon as possible and climb the mba bus quickly.But as fate would have it, i stuck here for more than what i should have stayed...enuf to gather some pleasant memories. Pk, hf, vm, ml and me constituted my gang for more than a year or should i say right from the beginning. later the group grew with sk, vm,df [the famous words df were coined by him so let me call him df]Idid make a lot of other close friends right from the beginning...but these were, I would say, special......Towards the end I even had a great time discussin music with ap [which i love most] ....i had missed that during my transition from lnt to delphi...ap was a no great musician technically speaking...but atleast he would understand whatever funda i would give.
Vm, fondly called shambu, was another of my close pals.....he joined the company the day I joined...and was recruited to the same team as I...He has a very good nack of developing story out of nothing. I feel should be working for a newspaper.He would be earning more lacs than his hike now.I still dont know what he is doing in TCI ....i can never forget his help the day before my isb interview.In the end,it made all the difference
If i were to write our adventures of pk, hf ,vm, ml, bb and etc....it would be something like a 5 point something in office....
i am probably not doing justice by writing just a few lines about these "folks".
another set of important ppl in my D-life were SS, who so much helped my interview preps even the day before interview,and how can i forget the good time we had in singapore.I hope my first day adventure doesnt get leaked out.
ERS- in the last 6 months i spent a significant amt of time my morning coffee with her...she was one more of my singapore companions....she joined delphi a few days before me..and more importantly she is still there....., now
pn- i spent most of my singapore trip with this fellow....and he will be there in all my sg photographs.....i hope u and ak get to do what u want to do.,..instead of dying in the D-place.......
hs, and shu--the ppl whom i coached to their glorious victory in itpl tournament.... :) well atleast i got to know these ppl becoz of it.......i really admire girls who are mentally tuff......i guess they are faar too few of them out there........i guess all sportsmen are like that....anyway....though i could interact more with hs, shu was a late entry in tci.... :)
rbhat i hope u got a gud hike......singapore ge kalsthini antha heli company kai ethbittru....dont know when neevu kai ethithira antha.....
and mister DF if i dont see u in isb next year...u pls rename urself df........comon arent u one??? all the best anyway.......boyz dont leave this fellow...screw him left right and center.......and add my share too......i am really curious how vm will react if he hears ur new aim.....
prince,I missed u for my send off....though i should thank u for taking me in...u interviewed me ....hope u remember...
bb, i hope u got ur money....and i feel sad that no ones there to irritate u anymore..hope krish does it for me......given that he has got a great hike...... also i have a suggestion to u...dont try too many girls at once..approach them one by one..u will be able to perform better :D
i really miss the afternoon naps under those trees of itpl...and then those funny discussions....i cant think of one situation where ppl mised a chance to pull each others legs....i hope i am missed....atleast i made bupen hazarika famous in tci......... :)

It also marks the end of the "funda" era in my life.At each phase in my life i have earned different subtitles... reflecting whatever characterstic of mine has stuck bright to the surrounding ppl....these friends of mine found that i could talk on a wide variety of topics....and that too "convincingly".....and found it too difficult to believe...they gave me this new subtitle...funda...now that i have moved out of this place...the title too might die out....god knows what new subtitle i have in store in my new destination.......i get one more chance to discover a new face of mine..... :)
N0w, the send off....well when i came back from goa i was really tired that morning.....i was expecting a small send off from my group members....but i was really moved to see it was a much more grand event than I expected......I am just 2 years old here.... i didnt think i deserved a gift...but it was a really nice one...i am uploading those pics here........i thanks the junta for the event....thanks ppl.....i had to thank ppl individually for this....for some wierd reasons i didnt and i wont....but i am really glad and heartened by having made such good friends....
All over , i feel like visiting this place over and over again... coz i cant think of a bitter memory here...maybe becoz i didnt work enuf :) And just before i was to get my first bitter pill...i moved my A** away from the place....and the day others got their hike letters i got my relieving letter...if i had got the former....then i wouldnt be dedicating such a big mail ...maybe this is what they call " A STICH IN A TIME SAVES NINE"..atleast i saved my 2.....

the team

team [another pic]

the gift in my hand...as amit pande looks on[dont worry buddy ur turn will come soon... :)]

blog revisited!!!

2006-03-19T22:10:00.000+05:30

this is the third time i am forgetting the password for this blog :(
If anyone has high hopes of me writing blog regularly...well try to remember my password!!!
alrite, let me get the situation upright...almost 2 months to go..for the course...i hope my loan gets sanctioned...else i cooked for life!!
got my tickets to hyderabad.!! i am looking forward for an exciting life..i hope i am able to try out all the experiments i have lined up for me...including my raw vegetarian meal idea....but dont know how far i will get time to make up myself.....
i have to make a check list of what to buy and what not to buy....for my isb tour....
next on line is this negotation with my manager for relieving date...first i asked him to extend it and now i am have to ask him to prepone it by 2 days....else my goa trip is going to get hit.....!!!!
btw, i have to make an earnest effort to advertise my blog...no else apart from me reads it!!
hmm..anyway, doesnt matter....though...no one else will show as much interest in me...!!!

Guru chats!!

2006-02-12T00:14:00.000+05:30

ok, i have this set of close friends....They are known as Panna, Draj, ravi, kata, kichi, NA, anantha, soori, prabhu,BC, and Santro.
Well the list looks pretty big...But all these assholes have forgotten life somewhere......
and have stopped realising time for each other....the problem is all have something going on in their lives....something that is taking all their time away......
While 2 are married the other is yet to be married......4 of them "onsite" so hardly time for their old buddies.....one is "far" away...that leaves me, panna and soori.......
So just to celebrate....this small reunion...we met today at Guru chats....
guru chats is a chat outlet that kind of specialises in "special items"...we first ran into this place more than 3 years ago...during college days!!!!
it is more like that sasi's place if u have read..fivepointsomeone!!!
This place has been our venue for discussions, decisions, comments and gossips...
It has hosted us a lot of gud times.......today the number of guys turning up has reduced....but some how i have made sure i visit this place atleast with 1-2 guys.....just to unburden some burdensome thots......its like u go into a temple with lot of complaints....but when u come out...u really feel so much better.!!!!
neway, i just hope that all these guys get into trouble soon.....so that they will start speaking up again...else these guys never look like they would meet up.......

The week was a physically straining one.....volleyball was fun though....the ITPL tournament will start next week...its going to be fun all the way......my company now looks more colourful to me now....especially after i have resigned....

I hope i get to travel a lot and have lot of fun before ISB grilling starts to happen.....

Jinx unbroken!!

2006-02-05T22:04:00.000+05:30

Its a gud feeling to start pouring out stupidity again and again!!
and hence back to blogging...
Dear few sympathisers of my blog world,
my comments in the previous post was supposed to be a joke.....there is nothing serious about it.....pls dont take offense to it...like my friend remarked...its supposed to be a Black humour!!gud name buddy....man has given nice names to all the mistakes he commits and this was a nice one too!!!
My sunday started out with these thots...and also a lot of questions......
well, there are so many things in this world i have tried to understand....most of this pertains in one way or the other to a species called woman!!
Miss fictious woman, i want to ask u some questions in life!!

1) What is it that drives u in life???i mean a motto of life!! there are 3 things that drives man- power, money and woman...it makes him commit crime and goodwill....it makes him think wild and also like a child!! From, what i have heard from history or what i know about u.....these 3 things has no impact on u.......there must be something which I dont understand!!

2)What is sense of humour according to u??when a joke is cracked u make a mess out of it....and U laugh when something serious happens?? Why??

3)When someone tries to get close to u, u make sure he is kept at a distance ?? and when u go far away U are all ready to die for him??why??

By this time, i got bored....i had one question in my mind...WHY THE HECK SHOULD I TRY TO UNDERSTAND??

I and kiru went to Rang de basanthi.... was an excellent movie...i really enjoyed it.....but the biggest mistake was made when we decided to back it up with pandu...RV..[kannada movie]...it was a bad choice....this was the 4th time we tried to break the 3 movies in a row....didnt make it...so the jinx remains unbroken.....before my ISB life begins we should make sure we watch 3 movies in a day......!!this is my new mission in life!!!

My another mission is the become a regular yoga follower....
Having had a tremendous life changing experience in the inner engineering program..i wish one day everyone in india undergoes this change in lifestyle....the isha foundation...is now any eye opener for many in this planet..i plan to try and bring this in ISB...lets see how it goes.....
Sadguru Jaggi vasudev is a fantastically learned person......i must truely say i have learnt the difference between learning and experiencing.....Hats of to this gentleman!!

Marriage is death!!

2006-02-03T21:17:00.000+05:30

Calamity in my life has befallen again!!
ok, i tried to pen down my experience a lot of times:
I tried writing when i recieved the first gud news in my life after almost 3 years..that was when i got an admit in ISB.
I failed.
I tried again when i failed successfully as an entrepreneur.i failed.I tried again to express how it felt like to meet
my future isb classmates.Again i failed.
But now Calamity has struck me. I am sad.I am depressed.
Emotions are running so high in me now that this time i am successful; successful in penning my thoughts about
miss-happenings.
I have lost a friend.Its not a farce, its not a hope, its the truth- Truth of the moment, yet another friend falls victim to a social evil called marriage.
Caught in the woods,like a true "rajnikanth" i asked the power superior one day---
"Oh! almighty! why dont u restore "life" on this planet?? why do u hate peace so much??
And of all people why me??I know everyone asks u the same question??
I really like and respect my friends!Cant u leave us alone in our own small humble world called bachelorhood.
In this world, we dont take permission for running our livelyhood.we come home anytime, go to movies late in the nite,
comment on any girls.In short we control our own destiny"
But,when god appeared in front of me, the answer to me was so expressionlessly simple-No words needed.Just a glance was needed I realised that the god I was praying was a SHE!!!

No one will hear me now.I am afraid i know the inevitable--yes, marriage is inevitable.
I now feel sad thinking of kata's untimely demise, err...or is it marriage???

I am surprised my other friends are congratulating him,I dont know why??
Everyday morning we drink coffee.We know coffee is bad for health.If on an (n+1)th day this coffee is not given to us,
what do we ask??think about it....
"dont i have the freedom to drink what i want??" ---is it not what we ask???
Now think again, is it freedom?? or bondage?? a hindsight thought will reveal that this is bondage-our bondage for coffee. isnt it??
The same is happening here.Is marriage freedom or bondage??
Becoz of this evil called girl, we have learnt to celebrate bondage and suffer freedom.
My teacher was right-ramayana happened becoz of kaikeyi and sita.
Mahabharata happened becoz of draupadi's saree strip.

Trouble is brewing,The inevitable is happening.I cannot stop this.No one can.
kichi, dont be ready to jump on me.I know we are all in the sinking boat. All of us have to go.
But the choice for all of us(BC-please excuse) is when to jump out of the boat.

First it was NA the great, He is the most loving enemy i have had. sisya, i still love u eternally,so what if we fought for a girl,so what if u r dead now, or if u have a kid[even more deader] --do what u want!!I love u, when i think of u i think deeply that u r a nice person to be with! But Today, when NA is in US and i dont even know.Isnt he dead for me??
Now time has arrived for the second one,I know this is one of the saddest days in my life.
Imagine how U feel when u know a person is going to be killed brutally with a mangalsutra [means "man" is going to be "gal's" "sutra" -- leading to man-gal sutra] and i stand there helplessly with some corns of rice in my hand to give u..to drop it on ur head. Becoz from that moment u r not going to get any more corns on ur own.From now on u r never incharge of ur destiny.
Marriage is an agreement between god and girl--a chance for her to experiment with a "spare" destiny before she can shape her own destiny

There was a time when we used to celebrate each others birthday without miss,success of any soul in the group was each of us, we partied for everything.A foriegn tour used to be celebrated with so much aplomb.Its now being skipped..sure signs of boat going down....

Kata--U are going to be murdered.
I cant help.I express my deepest concern for u.
May your soul rest in peace.
give us ur last treat please
Coz after this, u will never have control over ur purse!!

All my fellow travellers on the sinking ship, Dont u agree with me that we need to get together for a rare moment of happiness?? Lets mourn kata's untimely demise with mine [mine - i mean my success]

Well, I have to end this mail here.End it with a small wish.God , If at all there is another birth for us,
Let us, i mean all our boyz, all be born together again, in a forest of infinite boundary either as dogs or gays --------
-----------but not as husbands!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Deficiency is Strength

2005-07-16T23:05:00.000+05:30

hai... i am back...
A dramatic week....couldnt have been better.....and skies in bangalore are tuff competators for me....they wouldnt give up the "who cries maximum" competation...its still pouring outside like hell....but then i am a winner by a mile....and hope they understand that quickly ;-(
work isnt getting any better.....but i dont mind..its the last thing on my mind right now(and most of the time it is)....i am just a week away from a battle..hope victory for once doesnt elude me...they say hope is eternal...hmm..but i feel. as long as there is hope there is no happyness...hope always means there is something better u can get..which means what u have now is useless...but thats how it works isnt it??
anyway, there was so much to think up this week....
just wondering where this life is heading......say what can happen to me 10 yrs from now...

the special report on NDTV "No more kumbakonams" was a heart rending one..there are so many out there who deserve some attention...i really felt sorry for those children...
cudnt feel more helpless....dont know when i can do my bit for all this.....guess its become a habit with we folks to feel sorry and do nothing more...we complain about everything around us...but do nothing....if at all we do...its generally....a damage!!!but i guess a time will arive when I can offer something from my end...as of know..i will chose to lock it within me...

talking to a friend about a personal problem..i felt...that only when u have a shortage will u become stronger in ur mind.....only a deficit will make u more mature and stronger..
Inspiration can never come from within....U always learn by seeing others....

I realize i am going thru tuff times....things have to get better.....persistance does pay...
Loneliness is never a burden anymore to me....I know how to enjoy it.......Guess this will give me company for a life time...

sunday chills

2005-07-11T00:36:00.000+05:30

hmm...so i finally have my own blog.thanks to this wonderful rainy day.
I luv rain.especially when it does in bangalore....
but then it cancelled a get together party...

the exams are fast approaching...havent even made any headway.....
its as usual sobbing story for me....lets see if i can put up some effort over the week....
I feel so lonely today...dont know why i get to this point at all...
its time to recollect some old thots....some decisions i am proud.......but has brought my own doubt fall... i wonder why some ppl are left to fend for themselves.....its night and i havent slept....