Interpretations!!

Its 515 early morning! My eyes are awake...It feels like a little dusky.If I were in bangalore I would have thot it was 630.But the thick curtains hide my bed away from any little light that can penetrate through to my room.My eyes are wide open...And i am staring at the ceiling.The rooms is decibeled by the grinding sound of my fan.But deep inside my mind runs an electric train.I continue to star blankly at the fan.Whats life all about?? Where have I come and Where do I stand??my cheeks widen a bit.I am not sure if it was worth a smile.But retrospection holds sway for the moment.
My childhood opaques my view of the running fan.It comes in frames...sometimes a little too blurr.Experiences-both horror and ecstatic ones, motion fast in front of my eyes.I change my expressions accordingly.My cheeks hurt a bit.But who cares.life is a roller coaster.
I see all those actors who played a role in my life,and built it for me, they stare at me one by one straight in my eyes.Some laugh, some cry, some smile. There are only 3 people who look at me expressionless.My father, my mother and my brother.They have been with me all through my lifetime.And i am unable to comprehend them. My eyes swell a bit, vision blurs, a stream of colourless fluid brims my eyes.

I close them, take a deep breathe and open again.the eyes clear out a bit. The fan is still swirling like it could go on for eternity.But it takes less than a second for imagination to hold sway again!
The vision changes.Another pleasant smile appears, i am jittery in my eyes, vision still blur.
Its amazing how much life can offer u!
Oh!My dear Men and Women!! You, who have come across my life, giving me the pleasure of all experiences!!I salute u!! I shall die a peaceful death one day..just in ur name!! How can I regret!! U have given me what u were destined to give me!! U are my men of honour!! I salute u!!thanks is what i can say!!
What next?? life never ceases to amaze me!! I only wish ... i could get up in the morning look at life in anticipation.But the fear is...its never clear what it can throw at u!!Bumps on my forehead!!wake up its no use trying to sleep! its dawn!!